Broken Arm: Part 2 ~ Falling off Could Actually be Falling Into

There is a saying that goes, “If you fall off the horse, get back on.” Well, sometimes you need to stay on the ground.

When I broke my arm, it was the second time my horse bucked me off within 10 minutes. The first time she bucked me off, all that was hurt was my backside and pride. Growing up on a horse farm, the ol’ saying above range through my ears, so off I went, to get back on… until I wasn’t… again.

The horse who bucked me off, Moon, and I were just not meant to be. I wanted her to work out, but as I said in Part one (my previous post), I already knew better. I knew she missed her previous home and humans, and I was still hurting from losing Bob, my heart horse of 20 years. So, Moon returned home, and I was left contemplating what to do next. I was left asking myself, am I supposed to get another horse? A donkey? A mule? Or, do I just slow down and make sure I am hearing God clearly this time, and not ignoring His voice whispering to me. Am I taking time to hear the Lord so I do not get hurt again?

As of today, June 25th, I am learning to wait. God has the perfect equine in mind for me, and I know why Moon did not work out, and why Bob passed away. God put a calling on my heart, as He gives each of His children. My calling involves sharing the animals on our farm with children, and to do that, it takes special animals. Animals who are quiet, safe, and enjoy human affection. I have felt that this calling will come to fruition soon, though in God’s time. Bob was a spirited, quirky, not-so-safe with children kind of guy, and of course, Moon was not settling in on our farm to no fault of her own. I need an equine the can be both my riding companion and good with children, like the rest of our animals.

When we peruse our destinies in life, God walks our paths with us, but sometimes that means saying goodbye to souls and places we love; at least until we see them again. That may be difficult to hear, but we live in a fallen world, and God never said we would not feel pain. He did say He would always be with us, and use all situations for His Kingdom.

As your faith matures, your understanding of who God is matures. You are able to connect your life events to one another, and make sense of His plans for you as they unfold. Maturity and connection in the spirit brings peace, joy, understanding and endurance to live life in the natural. Sometimes we sense things in the spirit and assume they are connecting to something in the natural, but this is when slowing down and really seeking God’s will is vital. Sometimes we sense things in the spirit well before they are ready to manifest in the natural, and there are always opportunities that “seem right” but are not right. For instance, I thought I found the “perfect pony”, but Moon was only my understanding of perfection, not God’s.

Today, I thank Jesus again for helping me see that Moon was not the right horse for my calling of running a farm ministry. I thank Him for reminding me to slow down and hear Him so that when the right animal is revealed, I can “Fall Into” partnership with peace, grace and joy.